"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal." Matthew 6:19
This verse and the following passage have been on my mind a lot lately. Perhaps it's the constant talk of the economy that seems to be everywhere. Some of it has to do with questions I've been asking myself lately about some decisions that might have significant impact on the future.
While my world is still relatively small, adoption did open it significantly, and I pray daily my eyes continue to open to what is outside what we know.
Trouble is, the more I see, the less sure my footing sometimes becomes. I only seem to question what I've mostly always been taught and what constitutes regular expectations in most people around me. To say it very harshly, I'm not sure that the "American Dream" isn't one of satan's greatest tools. Rarely do we ever truly define success by anything other than monetary gain. We push kids through increasing levels of education to get a better job. Then, somewhere, we reach a point where we have so much, that we then constantly are fighting just to keep what we have and get more.
We get accustomed to doing it ourselves, and working harder, so that we no longer have to trust or seek the Lord. Then we no longer have time if we wanted to. As a man, I'll admit there's the feeling that I have to provide everything my family needs. It's hard not to worry about that sometimes. Yet, God promises us what we need. He tells us not to worry about them, not even the basic stuff, like food or drink or clothes. Our heavenly Father knows that I need them. If I seek first His kingdom, and His righteousness, He will provide these things.
He doesn't say only if I work as hard as I can for them. He doesn't think like we think. He wants to show us His glory sometimes, and He can't always do that if we're constantly getting in the way.
A note to any potential readers: This may not make any sense. I'm okay with that. It sort of doesn't make sense to me either. I am in a process. I'm not exactly sure what that process is. I am mainly blogging here to myself, trying to sort some of that out. If you've landed here, pray for me. I promise to do the same for you.